New Chapter

  Hello!


  I’ve reached to point in my life, where I feel more powerful than ever. Last six months have been so rough. At that time I learned to love myself differently and it was hard to get used to the new me. But why I was gone for so long from Internet???
  At the end of September, on Friday morning I woke up and felt something weird about my face. I went to bathroom and I almost shit in my pants. Left side of my face was "frozen". I couldn’t smile normally, my left eye did’t close and my left brow didn’t do any movement also. I started panicking, because it wasn’t funny at all. My mum and I went to Tartu, it’s about 50km from my home, to hospital. I had to stay there about 2 hours. They did blood tests and checked me countless times. Finally I went to home. That weekend I was totally depressed, I didn’t get out of bed. Next week I went to school, everybody asked a lot of questions, what I couldn’t answer. Wednesday I got a call, I have to go to hospital quickly and something told me that situation wasn’t good.
I had to stay there for three days and it was like hell. Finally the results came.....
  I was diagnosed with Bell’s palsy. Basically the left face muscles were paralysed and nerves were damaged. Honestly I wanted to die, because the first thought was that "My singing career is over!!?!!?!!" But I didn’t give up, although doctors said that I am never gonna be with face I was weeks ago and this situation could come back.
I had to train my face with a lot of exercises and keep my face warm. Now about 60% of my face has healed and I am so happy because now I can smile, but not with teeth yet. 
  Even though I am healing, my confidence went from 100% to 0. Currently I am building confidence and the walls what are keeping me from happiness are starting to break.
Every morning when I get up, I always tell myself "I am beautiful with my imperfections!!"

  It’s perfect start for my new blog. In this blog I share pieces of my life. Also I will show my OOTD pictures and have fun writing to you. I love you to pieces and I hope you like my posts 😊😊

By: Katryna 💗💗